Name:Tina Francis Francis Country:Canada State:British Columbia Birthday:February 18, 1982 Gender:Female
Interests:Music and more specifically jazz, playing my guitar, songwriting, singing, reading andmaking short films. Expertise:Making friends Industry:Media
Isn't it amazing when life gives you second chances?
Human
beings can be so naive. So hopeful. So trusting. We put all our eggs in
one basket sometimes. All our hard eared savings in one stock hoping,
fingers crossed (quite foolishly) that it will increase in value.
Sometimes it does. But if your life is anything like mine it probably
doesn't.
I fell prey to navel gazing for most of 2007. You
know...what I mean. Looking down feeling sorry for myself. Pondering
thoughts along the lines of: Why is life so unfair? Why I am so darn
unintelligent? Why do I make bad choices? Why I am I not a survivor
like the others who failed but eventually overcame their misfortune?
All questions that are great mood enhancers if being morbid is your
thing.
People always say cliche things when you are hurting.
This too shall pass. Only time will heal. There is light at the end of
the tunnel. And in the midst of it you think... "Maybe resilient people
with iron will and decent self-worth will survive. But not me... No
way."
Epiphanies come when you least expect them. Ironically,
much like life's unfair moments. And when they do arrive you realize
that indeed all of the aforementioned cliches are true. This too shall
pass. Time WILL heal. And apparently there IS more than light, there is
a life full of passion at the end of the tunnel.
I had one such
epiphany. It was grand. Definitely supernatural. And I can safely say I
feel sane, rested, whole and hopeful again. It is wonderful to feel
revived, energized and bursting at the seams with the excitement of a
life pregnant with opportunities. Opportunities that for some reason
suddenly seem within my reach again.
I am well again. Strong. Brave. And all that good stuff.
And to those that are in a valley of life right now...I promise you... This too shall pass. Time will heal. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
Okay, I'm a supergeek that subscribes to www.dictionary.com's "Word of the day". No shame here. I think having a good vocabulary is an attractive trait. Sure I use too many exclamation marks in text messages and emails and slaughter the language with abbreviated spellings. But nothing floors me like the perfect word to describe something.
All this to say today's "word-of-the-day" email floored me.
impervious \im-PUR-vee-uhs\, adjective:
1. Not admitting of entrance or passage through; impenetrable. 2. Not capable of being harmed or damaged. 3. Not capable of being affected.
I want to be impervious. I want to know who I am. I want to be sure of my worth. I want to be unaffected by people who disappoint me. I want to not let failure or my mistakes define me.
I want to remain genuine, honest, innocent, open, plain, pure, sincere, straightforward, truthful, unpretentious, rough around the edges, uncontrived, simple, direct, untainted, upright, wide-eyed, raw, real, trusting, untarnished, modest and giving.
I don't want to treat the world the way the world treats me. I don't want to stoop that level. I'm nowhere near being that amazing person. I am shallow. I wallow in self-pity. I am a work in progress. But it's who I strive to be. You need to set the bar pretty high to be a semi-decent human being.
Doesn't it remind you of a super girly version of Imogen Heap and Frou Frou's production? I like it though. I'm such a cheesecake. I know....
This song makes me cry. I am SUCH a sap. It's one of those days. *eye roll*
P.S. I am having a day where cheesy Bryan Adams is making me feel understood. Hello! Can I get an 'Amen'?
